To the beautiful babes at ShexShines, I can’t express my gratitude enough for your IG post on last Monday.
I took a much needed break from creative writing, and my blog and just focused on working and being a mom. Obviously, it turned into an extremely exhausting loop and I figured now was the perfect time to start creating content again. Believe me, I almost said I’d wait until 2020 to relaunch the blog and then remembered I wrote a post explicitly telling you all not to wait until 1/1 to get your shit together, so I opted not to be a hypocrite. When I popped into Instagram earlier last week, I saw that ShexShines had tagged me in a post. When it opened, I saw my words on the screen and a quote from a previous blog post explaining why I started The Blessed Babe and what my purpose was.
I then looked through my tagged photos and took a little trip down memory lane, seeing the events I went to and the time I spent with my friends and it didn’t leave me with that usual feeling of missing out, but more of a spark that ignited in me. I’ve invested time, money and energy into this blog and I’ll be damned if I just let it sit idle! I pour my heart out here and even if it’s only my mom reading it and sharing it, or if it’s my internet friends who send kind words, that’s okay. I’m coming to terms with understanding how important it is to keep pushing regardless of what people think or feel. If you create something with good intention and passion, the support will come. You never know who is watching, reading, sharing, etc. behind the scenes and you’re selling yourself short if you give up because you haven’t blown up. I’m sure you’re just as bored with the same influencers, their presets, and their little dog too. No shade intended, it’s just that IG is saturated with these picture perfect people and I just can’t relate. That’s not to say that these creators don’t have things they go through, but I’ve come to appreciate those who are relatable and I’ve cleaned up all my timelines on my social media to make sure that I’m seeing content that keeps me inspired, happy, or humored.
I don’t know if it’s the coffee, the fact that it’s 11/11, or if my anti-depressants are working OT, but I am fired up! I really urge you all to take the time to invest in your passions and let your instincts guide you. I’m taking this advice for myself. I have so many projects I’m working on, so many goals to accomplish and the only thing holding me back is me. I hope you all enjoy the direction I’ll be taking this blog because I am indeed going to put more effort into it and instead of blaming my postpartum for my lack of productivity. I’m going to make time to invest in myself because my little Savannah deserves the world. I can’t give her that if I’m constantly putting myself into a box, telling myself I can’t, or that what I have to offer will not benefit anyone. The imposter syndrome is a crazy thing but I’m reminding myself that I’m me, no one else can be me, and no one else can offer the world what I can offer. Remember why you started in investing in yourself and use it as motivation. Remain uncompromising with your ambitions, own your shit and don’t let anyone make you feel like you don’t deserve to be where you are. Close this decade out with a bang and let the “new” roaring 20s know who you are!!